What does This Thought Feel Like?

I was reading a comment left by someone on an article.  The comment triggered my ego.  The comment itself was (as I viewed it) egotistical and condescending to the author.  This caused my own ego to think, “what? how dare they be so egotistical!  So full of themselves. I should write them with an equally insulting comment.”

Reviewing the Thought

Just after I thought that mental response, I contemplated the thoughts:

Where did that thought come from?
Answer: My own ego.

What did the thought want?

Answer: To fight another ego.

Feeling the Thought

Before the thoughts left (as they do subside under analysis), I felt the thought.  It felt a certain way.  “What does it feel like to be this thought,” is perhaps the best way I can describe this.

What I felt can’t really translate to words.  It was a feeling, and it felt spacial (even though it may not be) and it had a feeling of some substance.

By feeling the thought, I found I was more aware of it.  I wasn’t “it” anymore, and it wasn’t driving my actions anymore.  Both analysis and feeling helped me in witnessing and releasing the control mechanism it held over me.

Mindfulness

In order for the above situation to work, I required mindfulness. I needed to have some sort of mental ability to be aware of what the thought was, as opposed to my identity.

As long as the thoughts and the identity are interwoven, then the individual is simply driven by the thoughts.  Mindfulness is required in order to witness the thought patterns and say, ‘wait, let’s meditate upon this.’