I feel so alone now. First I removed the old influence… A few days later I realized I needed to remove my mother from interference with the family. Then out of the blue a long time friend mocks and I realized how unsupportive he’s been, so I disconnected from him.
In the chamber tonight I feel alone. Isolated. Lost even. I see my eagerness to end this feeling by reaching out to other occultists…. Just looking to be recognized. But no one seems to see me now. I am engulfed in a void it seems.
But I remember the sentiment of James Kirby…. To not give up, even when everything else is giving up on you.
So I sit and wait.